God tugs in mysterious ways.....

Well this story begins several years back, almost 8 actually, when Trent and I were married. At this time I inherited a monstocity of a television from his bachelorhood. I absolutely hated it in our house in Lewsiville. When we moved here, my father-in-law built this beautiful entertainment center that is built into the wall around it which made me grow to love the mostrocity b/c after this it was part of the room and not so much of a monstracity anymore! The built-in matches the rest of the built-ins in our home because the builder gave us the doors and hardware to put on it and we painted it to match. This built-in actually 'makes' the room. Well the television is now 10 years old and died sort of three weeks ago. Actually it just wouldn't turn on while T was away at his conference. Well after three weeks of going back and forth with a guy that repairs 'on the side' we came to the fact that they no longer make this part that it would take to fix it. So.............

We went T.V. shopping. We were torn with what to do. We did not want to buy a specific t.v. to fit our built-in b/c our house is forsale and we hopefully will not always have it. It could work definately and would be an awesome t.v. We looked at several but just didn't 'feel' it. We both were a little excited the thought of a shiny new updated t.v. Also, our kids have been in our bedroom watching 'the other one' ever since and that is getting real old for lots of reasons. They are monkeys on our bedposts, we have had several falls. O gets into our bathroom if we walk out of the room, and our room is OUR room!

So we go to church yesterday. There is also a situation there where we are in a stewardship position with our church adding on to create more classrooms. We have been praying about that and how its all going to work, we are actually on the "Prayer Emphasis" team so this is a vital part. Okay, that being said, we are in class studying the minor prophets and it hits me what the theme is, which is also pretty much the theme of the entire Bible.........God is saying, "Worship ME................Worship Me......................Worship Me, Its NOT ABOUT YOU....Its NOT ABOUT YOU.......Its NOT ABOUT YOU over and over and over again. Then a class member makes the comment, "I truly belive that in order to reach true spirituality you can not be entertained." I think that was directed at being entertained by the world, your worship service and by society's material standard of living. Pretty deep.

Anways, T and I had both been pretty quiet since Saturday with all of this on our minds and then after class on the way to eat we both came to the same conclusion. Sort of neat how God does that. We decided not to replace the televison. That is money that could be spent elsewhere and time that should be spent with our family and changing our ways to be God focused instead. We also made the decision to get rid of the one in our bedroom.

This is going to be SOOO hard!!!!! We are not big watchers but do in the evenings and are starting to realize a lot more than we thought. I love having this as 'downtime' after the kids are in bed or when they are not here to watch my own stuff!!!!

I am not posting this to brag to say, "look how good we are to get rid of a material item"! I am not saying we will not ever own a t.v. again but for the time being we are not. I am posting this more to share how God is tugging at our hearts in a direct, really sort of wild kind of way. We were talking yesterday how other people deal with this. I had the "why us!" attitude I am ashamed to say! T helped me to see it as a blessing that God would tug in this way. I am sharing in order for others to see how God works in ways you may not even want to see and how its a choice really of how distracted you want to be. I did not think of myself as not wanting to be spritual. I also don't think that not having a t.v will make me spiritual, its what I choose to do with that time instead and my attitude towards it. THIS is where I need encouragment. Its also a little akward b/c I have only told one other person before this who is also a Christian and thinks we are real weirdos b/c of it! I don't want people to see us as going Amish or something but know when you come to our house you won't get to watch a show! The television that will remain in the built-in is there to help the house 'show better' not for actual usage, it doesn't work! Please still visit us though! Had our television not broken we would not even be at this point. The picture never went bad. No sign of anything going wrong. Just wouldn't turn on one day. That is very strange in the technology world. Do you think God has the power to take away our individual television set? I do.